Lessons in clouds: Part 2

“This was the cloudiest January in Minnesota since 1963,” our pastor said at the start of his sermon.

And my recurring word, clouds, drifted in again. I thought of that 1980s jaunt in the station wagon to see Mount Rushmore. Clouds obscured the presidential faces the day we visited, but they couldn’t block my memories of the trip any more than the hard things in life could blur my dreams.

I shot a look at Husband, not a big cumulonimbus guy, but a meteorology minor (to go with his Aeronautical Science degree back in the day) nonetheless. Even his education sparked thoughts for me of the condensed vapors in the atmosphere.

Clouds were everywhere. So, what other lessons loomed?

I focused on the message again. Pastor talked about clouds over our country in more ways than the physical ones that hovered over our first month of 2021. And if we lived inside of them, depression and despair would turn our views grey and defeat us.

“But because of His great love, we are not consumed,” he said. So, live above the clouds, he urged us; a change of altitude would shift everything.

But even the sunniest among us feel caught in the dismal sometimes—and dampened by our circumstances.

“Turn off the TV, the news,” he said, answering my desire for the practical. “And listen to the voice of the Air Traffic Controller who knows the way through the storm.”

Hope pierced my thoughts like a spear of light through fog, and more faith followed—because it always does when we glimpse our once hidden path again.

 

Refreshed, I dimmed the temporal things, tuned into the eternal, and a podcast spoke into my week, telling of more clouds. But these were different.

Since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us run with endurance the race set before us.

The clouds covering Mount Rushmore that day in 1983? An obstruction.

The clouds over the news with its threatening forecasts? A distraction.

The clouds of the faithful—gone before us—who finished life’s marathon well? A motivation. And I want to be like them.

Faith moves us. Hope accompanies us. Intention fuels us.

And the clouds, once dark, clear again.

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*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

Lessons in clouds: Part 1

When one encounter after another—in a short span of time—brings up the same topic, I listen. There’s a reason in this season for the recurring subject, and I’m curious why. Does that happen to you too?

The common theme for me these days started last week with a visit from some of my relatives who mentioned a trip to Mount Rushmore. And when I hear Mount Rushmore, I don’t think faces. I think clouds.

Hop in our old wood-paneled vehicle, and let’s go back a handful of decades to relive this one together.

*****

Nothing says family trips in the 1980s like a station wagon without adequate air conditioning.

As the carsick one in my family of seven, I soon learned all the tricks to stave off nausea: “Don’t read in the car”, “Put your head between your knees”, “Take deep breaths through your mouth”, and “Just look out the window”, which was hard to do when my head was dangling between my knees.

Perennially queasy in the warm backseat, I battled my way through childhood trips without asking Dad to pull over—except on June 16, 1983. Winding our way up to visit Mount Rushmore, I was finally out of options.

“Can you stop?” I said, waves of sickness threatening to drown me. “Now?”

I don’t recall Dad’s answer, but he wasn’t pleased by the interruption in our schedule. He pulled the car over and put it into park. I shoved my door open and sprang out. Crouching by a back tire, I emptied my stomach. And I heard it.

I wiped my mouth and climbed back into the car. “Something’s hissing out there.”

“A snake?” One of my siblings said.

Dad got out and took a lap around the vehicle. He returned. “We got a flat tire.”

No one ever said it, but I’m sure the family thought my bout of sickness, however ill-timed, had saved the day.

The tire changed, we continued our ascent to the presidential faces. But the skies, thick with grey clouds, obscured our view.

“Maybe it’ll clear,” Mom said.

For hours, we waited. But the clouds—more stubborn than we were—persisted.

“I guess that’s it,” Dad said, hands on his hips. “Maybe next time.”

We kids snapped pictures of the hidden landscape. At least we knew what the photos were all about, and anyone sifting through them later would just have to take our word for it.

 

Today, I laugh at the vomiting episode, the flat tire, and our blocked view of the national monument. But isn’t life like this? My days lately have resembled June 16, 1983. The trip up to the stuff of my prayers is winding, and car sickness distracts me. But wait. A flat tire too? And now when I’m almost there, clouds are hovering, obstructing my outlook.

Is this your life too? I have an idea. Let’s capture some snapshots for our scrapbooks anyway—to remind ourselves. Because the longings of our hearts are still there even when we can’t see them.

Everyone else will just have to take our word for it.

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*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

Mrs. Fitzpatrick

Maybe it was my uncle’s passing last week or maybe it was yesterday’s rain that triggered the memory of my long-ago neighbor. Either way, even after forty-seven years I remember Mrs. Fitzpatrick and smile.

*****

Whenever someone dies, it rains.

Or at least that’s what I decided that day in 1974.

We lived in a big, green house in south Minneapolis—across the street from Seward Elementary School—back then, and Mrs. Fitzpatrick and her sister Inez lived next door.

To my preschool eye, our two neighbor ladies looked ancient. Mrs. Fitzpatrick wore smock tops, and half-moon eyeglasses hung from her neck on a bejeweled lanyard. Her fingers dripped with splashy rings, and when she laughed in her gravelly voice, she flashed silver-capped teeth.

Mrs. Fitzpatrick was good to us kids and allowed us inside her house for visits. The place brimmed with musty knick-knacks and heirlooms, but I was drawn to one picture on her wall: a peacock—its splayed feathers done in shimmering threads—laid to rest on black velvet and framed in ornate gold.

Mrs. Fitzpatrick was the only adult I knew who smoked, and I thought the habit was otherworldly and matched her velvet art. She owned a beaded coin purse, made especially for her pack of cigarettes, and pedestal ashtrays stood at attention by the sofa and chairs in her living room like servants awaiting their lady’s orders.

On Halloween, Mrs. Fitzpatrick treated us kids as guests and not like front-stoop beggars in costume. With a flourish, she swept us into her home so we could choose the candy we wanted. And my older sister Coco counted the old woman as her friend.

While Mrs. Fitzpatrick watered her lawn one day, Coco modeled all her summer clothes for her in an impromptu fashion show. As my sister flounced outside in each new combination, the woman tipped back her head and laughed. Some days, after Coco returned home from her school across the street, she went over to visit Mrs. Fitzpatrick, and the two of them chatted while they worked crossword puzzles on the front porch.

One morning in 1974, a paramedic van with flashing lights pulled up in front of Mrs. Fitzpatrick’s house. My two-year-old brother Fred and I scrambled to our perches on the back of the brown couch and watched the activity through the picture window. Several men from the vehicle traipsed into our neighbors’ home, but the rain pelted the glass, obscuring our view. So Fred—wearing nothing but a diaper—scooted from his post, pulled on a coat, and stepped into Dad’s galoshes by the front door. He tromped outside in the thigh-high boots, and I followed him. We stood side-by-side in the rain in our front yard until the men emerged from the house, carrying a covered something out on their gurney.

Coco came home early from school that day. She had spotted the emergency vehicle when she was outside for recess, and she told her teacher she felt sick. Mom announced the sad news to us kids: Inez had found her sister unresponsive in bed that morning. Mrs. Fitzpatrick had died in her sleep.

A year later, I watched the episode of Little House on the Prairie where the widow passed away, leaving behind her three children. The woman’s voice had been raspy—just like Mrs. Fitzpatrick’s—and rain poured down at her graveside funeral. I again thought of our neighbor’s showy accessories and generous candy dish, her smoke-staled furniture and Coco’s frequent visits. I recalled the scratch of the upholstery on the backs of my legs as I sat with Fred on the brown couch that last morning and the feel of the rain that greened the grass but washed away our friend next door.

Because back then, it always rained when someone died.

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*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family, neighbors, and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

The darkroom

“Have we met before?” the author said, scanning our surroundings at the bustling event.

The writers’ conference boasted a large gathering of riveting speakers, notable authors, new writers. And like me, the creatives milling about the auditorium hoped agents, editors, and publishers would notice them. The woman—many books to her credit—waved a finger, motioning to someone behind us. Her gaze drifted back to me.

“A couple of years ago,” I said. “We talked again last year.” And I mentioned a third writerly event where we mingled and where we really connected—or so I thought. We had even exchanged business cards twice.

Without words now, she smiled, but her blank memory had much to say.

Of course she was busy with life and people. Of course she had bigger goals to pursue. Of course it would be difficult to remember an unpublished someone. But my name was unusual enough to spark at least some recollection, wasn’t it?

Baffled by my interaction with the author, I drove home at the end of the conference. Maybe with future publication my memorability would change. I shelved my fears of being forgettable—what good would it do?—and instead mulled over the highlights of the convention.

When the same thing happened with a few different writers at another seminar the next year, though, I let my brain venture into that place. What was going on? Would my visibility change someday when someone offered me a publishing deal? Would people remember my name—or face—then? What did I think I was doing anyway?

Notoriety mattered in the profession, and I wasn’t out there yet. Instead, I worked in life’s darkroom, practicing my skills in seclusion while praying the developing picture turned out beautiful.

But it felt like forever in the dark.

 

One day while I drove on 35W North to meet a friend, I envisioned my early writings, bound in book form as they stood, and something tweaked my gut. My face heated. Those beginning drafts weren’t developed yet. What if they had gotten out to the public years ago like I thought I wanted, but embarrassment and regret followed? What if the masses read them, raw and unprocessed as they were, and the message didn’t move them? Premature light—too early exposure—would’ve destroyed the final product, stripping its beauty.

What was the darkroom’s purpose? Refinement. What was its offering? Time. What was at its essence? Peace. Blessings hid in the season of being unknown, unnoticed, unseen. And protection rested there.

So, to those of us still practicing our gifts in obscurity, remember this: One Day. And until then, leave the darkroom shut. When it’s right, the One Who opens and closes doors will fling yours—and mine—wide, and the final picture will be worth it.

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*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

Travel stories: Hawaii (part 5)

The stars—usually silent—sang that night. And in my spirit I heard their ancient song because they were there at the very beginning when it all went down.

…their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world.

My towel “scarf” served me well on Mauna Kea—or maybe it was the sight of the velvet night with its sequins that stanched the chill. Our family huddled together anyway, our time and place in the cosmos falling away as I breathed in the firmament.

At last, we fumbled down the mountain in the dark and climbed back into the car. As we munched Clif Bars on the drive back to the hotel, our brush with eternity lingered in my thoughts.

 

They say the Big Island contains eight of the world’s thirteen climate zones—some say more—all in a place the size of New Jersey. In the span of two days, we had hit the tropical in Hilo with its black sand beaches, the dry in Puako where thousands of petroglyphs basked in the sun, and the tundra in the breathless heights of Mauna Kea. Now it was time to go beyond the terrain to frolic with the fishes.

After a lei-making class at the hotel, we headed out to the Keauhou Bay Boat Ramp, but no fancy vessels for us. We would canoe—in the company of two guides—ten minutes out for our manta ray night snorkel excursion. The mantas would be lovely, but I shivered. Exactly what else might happen in the ocean after dark?

We paddled our double-hull canoe, chasing the remains of the sun. An ahi tuna breached, and our female guide hooted. “Hey, that’s the first time I’ve seen that on one of these trips.”

“He dolphinitely did that on porpoise for you guys,” the male guide said. When we laughed, he kept on. “You’re gonna love the manta rays, but too bad you weren’t here last month. We sang ‘Manta Claus is Coming to Town.’ It was a-ray-zing.”

We found our parking spot in the ocean. Soon we’d see the gentle beings up close and personal. Other vacationers floated in nearby boats, their blue lights illuminating the now dark waters beneath them. From a neighboring watercraft arose intermittent man-screams; somebody was probably scared of sea creatures but too excited to stay back in his room.

The guides doled out ankle floaties, which were important, we learned, to keep us on the surface and out of the way of the mantas so we didn’t bump into their skin’s protective coating, causing them harm. We velcroed them around our ankles, tugged our goggles into place, and chomped onto our snorkels. The guides snapped on the boat’s underwater blue lights, and within minutes, the illumination attracted plankton.

“Jump in whenever you’re ready,” the lady guide said.

And we did.

Maybe it was the droplets of water in my snorkel or maybe it was the cool water that caught my breath, but when I came up, I sputtered and choked. I grabbed onto the bar that stretched between the canoes, per the instructions, hoping to slow my breathing. No luck. My feet popped up in front of me, instead of behind where they needed to be for my manta ray viewing. I struggled to poke them back. No luck there either.

Nearby, my snorkeled family fared nicely, each of them face-down on the water, enjoying the show below. I coughed, sucked air in double-time, and continued the La-Z-Boy position. What was wrong with me? And why was I hyperventilating? It was Hawaii, after all, and not like I had plunged into the iciness of Lake Michigan.

Ricka emerged and spoke through her mouthpiece. “You okay, Mom?”

“I don’t know.” More hacking, more huffing, feet still in front. What on earth?

“Everything okay down there?” the lady guide said from her seat up in the canoe.

“I think so.” But she eyed me for the next few minutes anyway.

Finally, normal breathing eased back, and I somehow shot my legs behind me where they belonged. The whole episode took about three minutes, but like those garish vacation shot glasses, embarrassment can be a lasting souvenir. I lowered my face into the ocean like everybody else.

And then came the magic.

One of the stars of our excursion flapped by underneath us. And five more undulated below the surface. Needle fish the length of bananas zipped by, competing with the docile creatures—that can be as long as fifteen feet between wing tips—for plankton.

Thank you for this gift, my heart said.

The mantas—six of them, in total—swished around us for thirty minutes, and the guides knew these six, calling them by name according to their markings and describing their varied personalities because we’re all unique like that.

At last the guides lowered ladders for us, and we climbed out of the water to paddle the ten minutes back to the dock. The mantas had hosted us well in their watery home, and near shore, a turtle greeted us in the shallows, giving us as warm a welcome back to land as we had ever known.

 

We punctuated our twelve-day trip to the Big Island with Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka’s adventure through UFO Parasailing. Husband and I kept our seats planted on the speed boat, our hair whipping in the wind while we watched the girls soar, ending our trip on a high note for everybody in every way. The two young ones running the parasailing operation promised to post the video of the girls’ flight over the ocean on YouTube in a couple of weeks. Nothing says indelible like a social media keepsake.

We flew back to Minnesota, our skin darker and our outlooks brighter, nothing eventful about our return trip to tag our memories. But every good story ties up its loose ends, and ours was no different.

“Mom,” Flicka said three weeks after our return home. “A lady messaged me through Facebook. She found my ID at the volcano and is sending it back.”

And so, in its spirit of generosity, the island kept giving.

 

Hawaii, mahalo. You were great, and we’ll see you again someday. In the meantime, we wish “warmth in your hale, fish in your net, and aloha in your heart” to you too.

*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

Travel stories: Hawaii (part 4)

Orange and pink hues hovered over Pololu Valley—at the northernmost tip of the Big Island—and leaked into our new day, peace staining my previous concerns, whatever they were. Who could worry in a place like this? I gazed out as far as my eyes could see, and clouds seemed to form a distant celestial city. I breathed in youth, forgiveness, hope. Sky happened everywhere, so why didn’t I notice it more often at home?

When the atmosphere turned to blues, we left the lookout and hiked the short but steep path down to the black sand beach at the end of the world. Despite the heat, I shivered at the view. No need for signs to tell us the waters were unfit for swimming; the jagged rocks and grey surf said as much on their own. Sacred burial sites lay deeper in the lush forest, and scenes from the show Lost pricked my memories. What if “the others” really existed, heard our movements now, and came after us?

Back in the car, we drove the eight miles to Hawi, a quaint town in North Kohala, where fresh produce and sundresses lured us into a farmers market. We paid $7.00 to a vendor who hacked off the end of a young coconut, so we could sip the water from it. When our drink was gone, the man chopped our fruit in half and sliced a piece from another coconut’s husk for us to use to spoon out its “meat”.

We rolled along the Kohala Coast to Puako Petroglyph Archeological Preserve, a place featuring more than 3,000 ancient Hawaiian rock carvings. Goats grazed on each side of the road as we entered the preserve, and in the parking lot I spied ten cats slinking around cars and trees, the scene spiriting me back to the island of Crete where cats and dogs roamed as they pleased.

“It’s only a 1.4-mile walking trail,” Husband said as we stepped onto the paved beginning of the art gallery of old.

We clicked pictures of the first etchings, sometimes reenacting the stick figures’ poses. Soon, though, the asphalt walk petered out, and the path called for a sure foot and good balance. We stepped over tree roots and lava rocks. We ducked under low tree branches. The way grew rugged, the trail at times indiscernible.

I rolled my ankle. “What was I thinking wearing these sandals?”

“Yeah, what on earth?” Husband pulled a thorn—several inches long—from one of his flip-flops. “Let’s say we’re done.”

Back in the car I reviewed the petroglyph preserve on Trip Advisor: “Wear good shoes.” “Low-hanging branches everywhere, so watch your head.” “Rugged terrain.” “Because of big thorns, don’t wear flip-flops.”

We may not have persevered to the glorious end (or even read about the excursion in advance and worn the proper footwear), but we admired a number of drawings from the hands of long-ago artists, their stories still calling out to us from stone.

And we listened.

 

If a trip to Hawaii calls for stunning sunrises, surely it begs for striking sunsets too—and stargazing to follow. Husband had done his research and knew exactly where to go to catch some constellations: Mauna Kea Observatory. Even back in Minnesota, he had made a plan and cautioned us all to pack warm clothing to execute it, since temps—yes, even on the tropical island—can dip to 30 degrees at the dormant volcano’s altitude of almost 14,000 feet above sea level.

The summit of Mauna Kea, as the legend goes, was the meeting place of Earth Mother and Sky Father who brought forth Hawaiian children, but at that height, it can also bring on altitude sickness if a human’s not careful.

“Turns out the lack of oxygen can even affect your vision,” Husband said. I frowned. Seriously? “We won’t be going up that far, though.”

We loaded the car with snacks and extra layers—I had learned a thing or two since our hike up to Kilauea—and hopped in the Ford Edge, bound for “White Mountain”, as the name Mauna Kea means in Hawaiian. But first, a stop in Hilo.

We parked the car and ambled around a farmers market in the largest city on the island, eyeing fruits we didn’t know and avocados the size of cantaloupes. In anticipation of the chill to come on the mountain, we found a beach at Richardson Ocean Park where we ate rambutan on our towels on the fine black sand, absorbing the sun’s warmth like we could save it in our skin for later.

Less than an hour down the road, we arrived at Mauna Kea and parked at the visitor’s center, which sat at an altitude of 9,200 feet. Now was the time to don the layers. I climbed out of the car to do it, and the wind lashed me. Within an hour’s time, the temperature had plummeted forty degrees. I tugged on a second pair of leggings and a jacket over my t-shirt, two thermal shirts, and sweater. My body felt fine, but my head? A stocking cap would’ve done nicely. But never mind that now. A beach towel would have to suffice.

We drove further on to a lookout point, the day draining from the sky. We hiked up another 800 feet, and there we perched on rocks, ready for the Divine light switch to snap off—and the event to start. Gusts ripped at my towel head scarf. I leaned into Husband’s side. The girls huddled nearby.

We’re ready, I thought. Show us what You’ve got.

 

*Tune in next week for the fifth (and final—and I mean it this time!) installment of the story. Mahalo!

*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

Travel stories: Hawaii (part 3)

Catching our breath from the near run-in with a local bird, we tooled along Chain of Craters Road.

“That wasn’t a nēnē,” I said, showing the family the results from my Google search.

In contrast to the nēnē (the Hawaiian goose with its soft call), the exotic chicken who had rushed our vehicle was the male Kalij pheasant, my phone said, and was often spotted in the Himalayan foothills, from Pakistan to western Thailand, although someone had introduced the species to Hawaii as a gamebird in the early 1960s.

We seized the dwindling daylight and stopped the car to romp in the national park’s fields of lava rock along the East Rift. At one pullout, we snapped pictures of the expansive Mauna Ulu lava flows, blanketing the landscape from 1969 to 1974, now hardened and resembling the moon’s surface. At another, we gazed into the almost four-hundred-foot depths of the Pauahi Crater. Finally, we parked the car, so we could hike up to view the glow of Kilauea, its newest eruption having broken out only a few weeks earlier.

We trekked the paved path for twenty minutes with Flicka hobbling along, the “urchin pieces” in her foot slowing her down. The skies darkened to pitch as we walked, and the wind swept us forward. My mind returned to a familiar vacation subject—appropriate clothing—and to a conversation with Husband before our departure from Minnesota.

“I should probably bring my packable down,” I had said with a wink, dangling the coat for a second over my suitcase.

“Knowing you,” he said, “you probably should.”

But I hadn’t. And on this night’s hike up to the volcano, a pair of shorts, t-shirt, and flimsy jacket weren’t cutting it. I crossed my arms and tightened my abs to stave off the chill.

We arrived at the summit and joined a mass of spectators, but our reward was only a hint of orangey glow emanating from the pit.

“Come back in forty days,” someone at the hotel had told us earlier that day, “And you’ll see the full lava lake of Kilauea.”

On the drive back to the hotel, pinpricks of light shone through the drape of blackness over our car.

“Dance with me under the diamonds,” Justin Bieber serenaded us through the speakers. Even pop music sounded glamorous in a tropical locale. “See me like breath in the cold…”

“Uh, I dropped my ID somewhere up at the volcano,” Flicka announced from the back seat.

Bieber’s voice was smooth, his lyrics timely. “You say that I won’t lose you, but you can’t predict the future, so hold on like you will never let go…”

Ugh. If only Flicka had.

 

After Ricka, Dicka, and I finished our free thirty-minute hula lesson at the hotel the next day, we all zipped into downtown Kailua-Kona to Body Glove Cruises for our whale-watching tour. The boat was large, the gathering small. The guy on the mic peppered us with humpback whale facts.

“Whale watching should really be called whale waiting,” he said. And over our three-hour session, we practiced waiting while he repeated that same statement a few more times.

Our guide described Migaloo, the well-known hypo-pigmented humpback whale, and I followed the intriguing sea creature on Instagram. While the famous one has been spotted off the coast of Australia, some have claimed to see the “white fella”—as the aboriginal elders call him—near Maui. But no celebrities for us today. Instead we eyed the usual—but still impressive—grey-colored variety a handful of times, their massive bodies rolling through aquamarine waters, showing us glimpses of backs or dorsal fins, if we were lucky.

On the route back to the port, spinner dolphins showed off near our boat, giving us a grand finale to our sea show. We waved goodbye to the tour crew and strode to the car. The girls scrolled through their phones.

“There’s Pukie and her kids,” Ricka said, pointing at an image.

“Wait. What?” I said, leaning in.

“You didn’t see that lady on the boat?” Flicka said. “She threw up a substantial, singular time.”

Sure enough, I had seen the mother with her two little girls across the deck from us, but hadn’t witnessed the vomiting. A quote from a book blew in: “Sailing is the fine art of getting wet and becoming ill, while going nowhere slowly at great expense.”

Hopefully now the woman felt better—and like we did: the whales were well worth it.

 

Back at the room, we snacked on fruit—soursop, egg fruit, and lilikoi—from a local farmer’s market while we freshened up for the Haleo Luau on the Sheraton’s grounds. Outside, we located our table on the carpet of grass, and a mongoose skittered across our path. Before taking our seats, though, we ventured toward the ocean and captured forever pictures there, the golden hour photoshopping our skin, lest we forget when Minnesota’s winter winds chap it.

Instead of a buffet experience, our plated feast came to us at the table: taro chips and shoyu poke, lomi lomi salmon and kalua pork, hoio salad and coconut rice, teriyaki New York steak and purple sweet potatoes. Later, over pineapple upside-down cake and haupia (coconut pudding), performers whisked us away with their Polynesian dances and songs. A storyteller carried us through the birth of King Kamehameha III—and into his reign where the royal blended ancient traditions with new—and transported us into the surfing stories of He’eia Bay.

The festivities over, we wandered back to our rooms, flickering torches pointing our way through palm trees, bird of paradise, and red ginger. Scents of passion fruit flower and gardenia escorted us. And there was that crashing beauty again in the darkness—the Pacific blasting against black rocks—restraining her power long enough to allow us to pass.

Husband and I gave up our usual evening on the balcony in favor of sleep. 4:30 a.m. came early, and we needed to rest fast. Sunrise in Pololu Valley—an hour’s drive away—waited for no one.  

We would catch tomorrow’s fresh mercies even as they peeked over the horizon.

*Tune in next week for the fourth (and final) installment of the story. Mahalo!

*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

Travel stories: Hawaii (part 2)

Flight attendants doled out water and stroopwafels to sweeten our two hours parked on the tarmac in San Jose. Finally, we flew back to San Francisco, our trip ending in a successful landing.

The pilot’s voice came over the speaker. “We’re experiencing some mechanical trouble with the jetway. We ask for your patience as we fix the issue.”

We stayed planted in our seats, but nursed zero worries about the additional delay; our flight bound for Kona was already long gone. A vision of a person trudging ankle-deep through wet sand—something I hoped to actually do one of these days in Kona—flashed through my brain.

Six hours later, we boarded a flight—the last one of the day—to Kona. Darkness blanketed us when we landed at 10:30 p.m. When palm trees wave aloha and warm winds kiss your face in open-air terminals, though, who cares what time it is? We snaked through a line with our credentials and proof of negative Covid-19 results and were funneled into another line for more virus testing.

“No news is good news,” the medical technician said as he swirled a long swab in my nostrils. “If you don’t hear from us within the hour, it means you should just focus on having fun.”

In our rented Ford Edge, we buzzed along Queen Kh’ahumanu Highway to our hotel, The Sheraton Kona Resort & Spa at Keauhou Bay, in Kailua-Kona. No phone calls came from the airport medics to rattle our plans. At last we checked into our suite with an ocean view, and I dropped my baggage on the floor of our room on my way to the main attraction. I slid open the glass door and stepped onto the balcony to see it.

Shrouded by night, “the deep calling to deep” crashed against lava rocks, majesty exploding the shores far below. I shuddered and breathed in the mystery of the beyond.

Sometimes creation leaves a dent in one’s soul.

 

In the morning, we explored the hotel grounds. Tropical foliage dotted the open-air lobby, and swimming pools meandered throughout the manicured property. Christmas decorations draped pillars and entrances, reminding us where we really stood on the calendar. The shell leis the hotel gave us upon arrival dangled around our necks, and the temperatures in the low eighties beckoned us toward the waves.

“I have to tone my hair first,” Ricka announced back in the room as we packed our bags for the beach.

Say it isn’t so, I wanted to tell her. But instead, “You brought the coloring stuff here?”

She nodded, and Flicka and Dicka joined her in the bathroom. Maybe with a rest day and all the coconut oil, her yellow locks would survive this next assault. But what about the sun, salt water, and chlorine to come? Was insult to injury coming too?

Ricka emerged thirty minutes later with natural blonde hair. No hair loss today, thank goodness. And the yellow was gone.

I smothered my shock at the results. “Wow. Looks good.”

We scrambled to Magic Sands Beach—only one of its many names, I learned—and met up with nature’s power in the big surf. The sun warmed our winter skin, and waves shoved us off-balance. And as breezes ruffled our hair, gratefulness swelled in me that we all still had some left on our heads to ruffle.

 

We awoke the next day to emails containing the outcomes of our Covid-19 saliva tests from the morning of December 31: negative, times five.

“Not exactly rapid results,” I said, sipping my coconut-flavored coffee on the balcony.

“Not even remotely,” Husband said.

Dicka popped her head into our conversation. “We’re heading down to the ocean to swim.”

I smiled. “We’ll be down soon. Be careful.”

Husband and I lingered over our javas. I secured luau reservations for later in the week while he added sunrise and star-viewing jaunts to our agenda. His phone pinged.

“Is she all right?” he said to someone on the other end of the line. “Okay, we’ll come right down.” There was the pit in my stomach again. He clicked off the phone. “That was Ricka. Flicka stepped on a sea urchin. I guess she’s crying.”

Before hiking out to the rocky beach to assess the situation, we made a stop at the front desk.

“So, our daughter stepped on a sea urchin,” Husband said to the woman behind the counter. “Anything you recommend for that?”

“I mean, it’s an old wives’ tale,” she said, “but maybe pee on it?” Wasn’t that the treatment for jellyfish stings? Or was that the healing answer for most sea-related injuries? “Or you can try the Urgent Care up the road, but I don’t think they’d do much for you.”

We thanked her and picked our way down the jagged landscape to where Flicka sat on a rock, staring at the sole of her foot.

“You okay?” Husband said.

A few tears, a treatment decision, and soon Husband accompanied our limping oldest to the car. I stayed back with the two blonde fish who sprang from black rock ledges into turquoise waters. They surfaced for sips of air before climbing out to do it again—and again.

Later, Husband and Flicka returned from their Urgent Care trip with a tinfoil pan and a jug of something.

“Apparently a vinegar soak will dissolve the spines in her foot faster,” he said.

“The doctor said legends out there say the bits of sea urchin will grow a new body inside you,” Flicka said with a chuckle. “They won’t.”

I wasn’t worried. I pictured the unfortunate sea urchin, though, minding his business, submerged and clinging to a rock like he did every day, until a foot came at him, breaking off his needles. Poor guy.

And my poor girl too.

 

We drove to Volcanoes National Park, timing our arrival for an hour before dusk. The highlight was the active volcano—the new eruption of Kilauea—visible after dark, we’d been told. Inside the entrance to the park, we pulled into a lot and sat in the car while we viewed a brochure, planning what we’d see in our last hour of light.

“I wonder what a nēnē is,” I said, pointing to a nearby sign. From the picture, the nēnē looked like a goose, and we were supposed to keep it wild and not feed it. But there was another slashed-out image on the sign too: a person with a dog on a leash. “So, no dogs can be on leashes around the nēnē? Or what?”

“Hey, there’s one of them,” Dicka said from the back seat. About ten feet away from the left side of the car was something resembling an exotic chicken.

The girls lowered a window, and several of us grabbed our phones to capture the moment. Like a celebrity tired of the paparazzi, though, the bird’s head swiveled our way, its gaze lasering in on us, and it charged our vehicle with surprising speed. What was happening?

“Dad, go!” a few people from the back seat hollered. Frantic, Ricka pecked at the button to roll up the window.

“What on earth—?” Husband threw the car into drive, mashed the accelerator, and we peeled away toward Chain of Craters Road.

*Tune in next week for the third installment of our Hawaiian adventures. Mahalo!

*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

Travel stories: Hawaii (part 1)

They say a journey of a thousand miles starts with one step; I say a family vacation begins with at least a couple of missteps. But let me start from the beginning…

Early in 2020, a friend clued us in to a spectacular deal online: roundtrip airline tickets to Hawaii for $250/person. The price tag on a dream trip for the family dangled in front of our eyes for a minute, teasing us. Refusal would’ve been foolishness.

We snapped up five tickets, booking our trip for August 2020, and mentally packed our bags. As summer ebbed away, however, pandemic travel bans sloshed ashore, and we learned Hawaii would be closed to tourism as of July 31. We changed our tickets to early January 2021.

Hawaii reopened to travelers in October 2020. We followed The Big Island’s pre-travel requirements for Covid-19 testing and learned we needed to test negative for the virus within 72 hours of our flight. Husband ordered saliva test kits for the family, throwing in an extra for an early practice session on himself. We were set.

On Thursday, December 31, the five of us rolled out of bed to meet a nurse through our computer screens who watched us spit into our respective vials. We packaged our test tubes per the instructions, and Husband drove them to FedEx. Our departure on Sunday, January 3, was so close I could almost smell the salty breezes. I lugged out my empty suitcase, eager to fill it.

Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka scribbled lists and packed, their excitement charging the air. Of my three natural blondies, the two oldest had morphed into brunettes in the fall just for fun, but now, mere days from wheels-up, Ricka needed to be blonde again for her upcoming beach life. The three of them chased her inspiration to Sally Beauty and came back with hair coloring supplies just as Husband returned from sending out our bodily fluids.

“Uh, about those tests,” Husband said, “I just read online that because of the holiday, the lab isn’t open Saturday, after all. They won’t even get our tests until sometime Monday, the 4th.”

But our flight was on Sunday, January 3…

We trashed all hope in the Covid tests from that morning, now sitting at a FedEx in Saint Paul. We needed new tests and favorable results from a Hawaii-approved facility—and fast!—but not one testing location in the Minneapolis/Saint Paul area was available. All required us to have appointments, and all were currently filled. What now?

Husband wrangled five appointments for Saturday, January 2, seventy-three miles away at a CVS in Sauk Rapids, Minnesota, but we would have to make two separate trips to accommodate all our schedules. A pit formed in my stomach. So many variables, so little time.

On Friday night, the girls broke from packing, and Flicka and Dicka stripped Ricka’s hair, ushering in The Crying. I poked my head into the bathroom-turned-lab. Ricka’s previously dark brown hair sat in an orange and yellow situation on her head. Flicka and Dicka, silent and wide-eyed, gazed at their sister. Ricka blurted something about perennial ugliness from that day forward.

“Oh,” I said, swallowing a gasp. “It’s not really that bad.”

But sometimes it is.

 

Worries churned my stomach on Saturday as our first group made the trek to Sauk Rapids for Covid testing.

“You’ll get your results in 2-24 hours,” the technician at the drive-up pharmacy window said.

I ran calculations in my head. It was already 10:30 a.m., and our flight departed at 7:00 a.m. the next morning. What if it took the full 24 hours for results? And what about Ricka, at work now, who was to be tested at 4:00 p.m.? When would her results come in? And what if only half of us had our results? Or what if we all got our answers in time, but one of us tested positive?

Within two hours, the first batch of results popped into our email accounts: negative, negative, negative, negative. I could almost breathe again. Almost.

My suitcase sat empty. How could I layer in my sundresses and swimsuit without knowing if this trip was happening?

In the afternoon, Husband drove Ricka to Sauk Rapids for her Covid test. I paced the house. One left to go, one left to go… By 7:30 p.m., the final results came in: negative. Relief flooded my everything. We huddled as a family, arms linked, and prayed our thanks.

We split up to pack—only ten hours until our flight now—and the girls headed back into the bathroom for another go at Ricka’s hair—this time to bleach it. I’m no hair stylist, but was it really a good idea, this second stint of chemical processing in only 24 hours? Soon The Crying from the bathroom told me no.

I popped my head back into the lab. Ricka picked at her yellow hair, and a chunk framing her face broke off in her fingers. I gulped down my reaction. Wordless and unblinking, Flicka and Dicka stared at their sister. 

“Well, at least the orange is gone?” I said. One of the colorists said something about toning it now, and I held up a hand. “No. Slather on some coconut oil, wrap it in a scarf, and go to bed.”

I wanted to say it would all be fine, but I try hard not to lie to the kids.

 

My concerns about Covid testing and botched color jobs frittered away the next morning as we boarded our flight from Minneapolis to San Francisco. I nestled into the seat next to Husband. The girls sat in the row ahead of us. With each passing hour, the aircraft winged us closer to paradise. I eyed my second-born, wearing the same head scarf she had slept in.

“Uh-oh,” I whispered to Husband, pointing at our girl’s head. “Check out her hair.” Little fuzzy, broken patches popped out from the edges of her scarf.

He shrugged. “What’s the worst that can happen? She can always just shave it off.”

Soon, my ears told me we had started the descent into San Francisco. A few minutes later, though, the plane’s engines roared louder and we climbed again.

The pilot’s voice came over the speaker. “There’s some fog above the airport, so we’ll make a second pass to see if we’re cleared to land then.”

I tipped my head back, resting my eyes. Might as well enjoy the ride. We were on vacation, and nothing could hold us back now. The airplane looped a second time and attempted a landing. Then came the third pass before it accelerated, gaining altitude once more. Our connecting flight to Hawaii was boarding in only an hour, and I imagined our reward at the end of it: soft sand and aqua waters. Oh, Kona, we’ll be there before you know it.

“We’re rerouting to San Jose,” the pilot said.

 

*Tune in next week for the second installment of our Hawaiian adventures. Mahalo!

*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

The same

I wrote the following blog post in 2016—a day after the election. Today I’m posting it again—a day after the inauguration.

The players changed, but life looks the same to me.

How about for you?

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Wednesday morning, my alarm clock jolted me out of bed at the usual time. The coffeemaker brewed my customary dark roast, and with the normal splash of cream, my coffee tasted the same too.

Like I do every weekday, I walked Dicka to the bus stop at the end of the block. And again, the fallen leaves and garbage fluttered by our feet as we strode down the sidewalk together. I side-stepped the trash and sighed; it seemed the identical litter appeared every morning, even though I picked it up daily on the way back to the house.

But something about the day was different.

“I don’t want to go to school,” Dicka said.

I assessed her face. No red, drippy nose. No glassy eyes. No sign of illness. “Why not?”

“Because everyone will be talking about the election.” She tugged her hood forward to cover her ears. “I just want it to be over.”

I curled my arm around her. “I hear you.”

At the corner, we waited for the school bus. The sixth grade girl from across the street plodded toward us like she always did. And as usual, an invisible weight—bigger than her backpack—pulled her shoulders down. My heart pinched, and I greeted her. She said hi back and then patted her mouth as she yawned, keeping an eye on me the whole time.

I accepted her non-verbal invitation. “So, you’re pretty tired today?”

“I watched the election last night,” she said. “I got to stay up until it was over.”

“Wow. That was late. I was asleep by ten-thirty.”

Her posture straightened, and her eyes sparked. “Did you hear Trump won?”

“I did.”

“He’ll be impeached soon. Like Nixon.”

I imagined the conversation swirling around her TV the night before as states on the screen lit up in red or blue. What else had the adults in her house told her to make the world right for her—and for them?

The bus pulled up and the door screeched open. I kissed Dicka on the forehead and said goodbye to the neighbor girl. The two of them climbed the steps and were gone.

I walked back to the house, plucking the garbage along my path. This morning, the citizens of the country dressed in new clothes: elation, hope, shock, fear, anger. Groups had decided to protest, and others had threatened to unleash riots throughout the nation on neighborhoods like ours. But our street was quiet at eight o’clock in the morning, and the message for me and my family again reverberated off the pavement and houses that lined our block. In our changing times, our calling stayed the same.

Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength. And love your neighbor as yourself.

If the national debt rose or fell, if immigrants were ousted or welcomed, if discrimination stamped out love like some feared or acceptance for all became the rule, nothing would change for us. We’d still talk to the girl at the bus stop, remove snow in the winter for the neighbors, take in kids in crisis, pick up the garbage. We’d still notice the invisible ones living among us, respond to the needs that were delivered to our door, and say no to the callings that were good but not meant for us.

And we’d stay rooted in the One who is the same yesterday, today, and forever.

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*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family, neighbors, and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

A day of leis

A whiff of concern floats to me on the tropical breeze, but just like that it dissipates over the Pacific. The country unravels, it seems, while we romp on the beaches of The Big Island. We always hoped for a Hawaiian vacation for our family one day, and here it is at the very beginning of 2021, sooner than we expected, thanks to the pandemic driving airline ticket prices to irresistible lows.

We swapped snow for sand, so why not push away politics for plumeria too?

A mound of fresh blossoms on the table in front of me is ready for piercing in this lei making class the Sheraton Kona Resort offers. While the nation churns in her conflicts, beauty and fragrance meld in my hands. And I forget to worry.

… whatsoever things are lovely… think on these things.

The teacher of the class speaks, her words melodic even through her mask. Nothing about the task is difficult—only soothing—as we sew nature into necklaces with the longest needles I’ve ever seen. Soon, we wear our work.

And I can’t stop smiling.

(In upcoming weeks, I have stories to tell you about our Hawaiian adventures, but for now, enjoy some pictures from our lei making day.)

*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

2021: your words for the new year

“The words you speak become the house you live in.” Hafiz

Last week, I invited you to share the words you chose as inspiration for your 2021. Enjoy some of my readers’ responses today.

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My word for 2021 is Energy. Finding it. Using it. Giving it.

Becky, Mahtomedi, Minnesota

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LOVE - With a year behind us that was filled with struggles and division. Loving our neighbors, both close and far.  Taking the time to support, understand, and love one another is what will start to bring healing and unity. 

Lauren, Minneapolis, Minnesota

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Trust! In 2021 I will trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not unto my own understanding, in all my ways I will acknowledge him and he will direct my path. Trust!

Armanda, Saint Paul, Minnesota

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I must choose two words: gratitude and perseverance.  I feel like I have gratitude down pat - I have SO much to be grateful for -until I forget to be grateful and give in a bit to sadness. So perseverance that will lead back again to gratitude is essential! 

Sandy, Lacombe, Louisiana

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Tender. My goal is to focus on a tender (and gentler) approach to being a wife and mama.

An excerpt from a book I’m reading: “Dream big, let yourself imagine a home where the heart sets the tone of loving kindness, a home where your first reaction is compassion instead of annoyance, where you replace fiery cycle of anger & guilt with conviction and spiritual growth; a place where you draw the hearts of your children towards grace and every one of you thrives.”

When we apply Truth to our hearts the Holy Spirit does all the work and God gets all of the glory.

An attainable and fulfilling goal for me and my family!

Leah, San Pedro, California

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*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.

2021: new year, new word

As I type this, it’s almost 2021.

Words swirl in my mind about 2020, the year we walked through—or maybe stumbled through—together, but enough of that. I’m looking ahead now. And I have my word for 2021.

I’d like to say I chose my word, but I’ll be honest. As usual, it chose me.

Abundance.

Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap.

Now what about you, reader? Do you have a word to guide and inspire you this new year too?

If you’d like to share it with us, send me a message HERE with your word for 2021 and why you chose it, and I’ll publish your writing in next week’s blog (along with your first name, city, and state.) (Subscribers, simply hit reply to this email.)

Happy New Year!

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*Names in this blog have been changed to protect my family and friends in the neighborhood, and in a nod of appreciation to the beloved Swedish author Maj Lindman, I’ve renamed my three blondies Flicka, Ricka, and Dicka.